I am struggling

to keep my life

from taking over my mind

Yet,

circumstances being such as they are

tend to pile up like

the dirty dishes that nobody wants to wash.

I struggle with my feelings and my emotions

like everyone

but I FEEL

so strongly

about

love,

relationships,

conflict

and

pain.

I struggle with keeping people

too far away from

my heart

Trusting them not to crush it

Allowing them to help me

Even to demand that some people help me.

I struggle in my marriage

as I feel like

I have been snuffed

my soul is starving

for intimacy

for legitimacy

for validation

If people indeed

are not static

where does one draw the line

and demand accountability

for the actions that are hurtful and painful

The body ages

but the soul can either

grow or starve to death.